Hey Reader,

Welcome to your weekly Mezzo moment!

🔥 QUICK WIN OF THE WEEK

Action: Name It to Yourself

Find a quiet moment. Take a breath. And let yourself think — or write — this sentence:

"I am grieving ____________."

Fill in the blank with whatever's true:

• The parent who remembered everything
• The conversations we used to have
• The future I thought we'd share
• The person who didn't need my help
• The relationship that used to be easier

Why this works:

Unnamed grief stays stuck. It shows up as irritability, exhaustion, guilt, or a sadness you can't explain. When you name it — even just to yourself — you give it a place to exist. You stop carrying it invisibly.

You're not being dramatic. You're being honest. And that's the first step.

Deep Dive: Understanding Anticipatory Grief

There's a name for what you're feeling. Psychologists call it anticipatory grief — the mourning that happens before a death, as you watch someone you love decline, change, or slowly become someone different.

It's real grief. It follows the same patterns, triggers the same emotions, and takes the same toll. But it comes with an added layer of complexity: the person is still here. Which means you're grieving and caring or caregiving at the same time — mourning who they were while showing up for who they are now.

What anticipatory grief looks like:

It's not one feeling. It's many, often contradictory:

• Sadness — for the parent you're losing, slowly.
​ • Anger — at the disease, the situation, the unfairness of it all. Sometimes at them, which brings guilt.
​ • Guilt — for feeling relieved when you get a break, for wishing it would end, for not feeling sad enough, or for feeling too sad.
​ • Exhaustion — grief is tiring, even when you don't recognize it as grief.
​ • Loneliness — because how do you explain that you're mourning someone who's technically still alive
​ • Anticipatory relief — imagining the end and feeling lighter, then hating yourself for it.

All of these are normal AND all of them can coexist. None of them make you a bad person.

Why it's so hard to recognize:

We don't have a roadmap for this kind of loss. We know how to grieve a death - there are funerals, rituals, sympathy cards, casseroles. But there's nothing for "my mom doesn't recognize me sometimes" or "my dad isn't who he used to be."

So the grief goes underground and it disguises itself as stress, burnout, or just "a hard time." You don't give yourself permission to mourn because, technically, there's nothing to mourn yet.

But there is - you're losing them in pieces.

And each piece is a real loss.

My therapist shared with me what helps:

• Name it. To yourself, to a therapist, to a trusted friend. "I'm grieving my dad, even though he's still alive." Saying it out loud makes it real — and valid.

• Let yourself feel it. You don't have to be strong all the time. Crying in the car after a visit doesn't mean you're falling apart. It means you're processing.

• Find your people. Support groups for caregivers understand this specific grief. You don't have to explain. They already know.

• Hold both truths. You can grieve who they were and love who they are now. You can be sad and still show up. Both things are true.

• Prepare for the waves. Grief isn't linear. Some days you'll be fine. Some days a song or a smell or a memory will knock you sideways. That's not regression. That's grief.

The bottom line:

You're not crazy. You're not ungrateful. You're not grieving "too early."

You're mourning in real time — and that's one of the hardest kinds of grief there is.

🌐 Need to talk?

Most families wait until there's an emergency to start planning, which often leads to rushed decisions and unnecessary stress. Nayberly helps you get ahead of the curve with a personalized care plan that addresses what matters most to your family. Book a consultation and walk away with concrete next steps—not just more worry.

💬 A Final Thought

The truth is anticipatory grief is lonely, complicated, and often invisible. But it's real. And acknowledging it — to yourself, to someone you trust — is how you begin to carry it instead of being crushed by it.

You're watching someone you love change. You're losing them in slow motion, in pieces, in ways that don't have names or timelines or sympathy cards.

And you're still showing up. Still caregiving. Still holding it all together while something inside you quietly breaks.

That's not weakness. That's love doing the hardest thing it knows how to do.

You're not grieving too early. You're grieving in real time. And there's no wrong way to do that.

Be gentle with yourself. You're carrying more than anyone knows.

Have a wonderful week on purpose,

Amber Chapman
Editorial Director

Share this issue: Know someone who could use a little encouragement? Forward this along or share on social [@intheMezzo]

Was this helpful? If someone shared this with you and you want to get this yourself, sign up for future emails HERE.​

​Unsubscribe · Preferences​