Hey Reader,
Welcome to your weekly Mezzo moment!
This Week's Theme: The Feelings You're Not "Supposed" to Have
Can we talk about the stuff that doesn't make it into the Hallmark cards?
We asked readers to anonymously share the emotions they've experienced but rarely say out loud. Here's what you told us:
"Sometimes I resent my kids for needing me when I'm already so depleted from caring for my dad. Then I feel like the worst mother in the world." "I'm grieving my father while he's still alive. The man in that chair isn't the dad who taught me to ride a bike. And I don't know how to mourn someone who's still here." "I'm angry at my siblings for not helping. I'm angry at my mom for not planning better. I'm angry at myself for being angry." "I had a moment last week where I thought, 'I can't wait for this to be over.' And then I realized what that meant. I cried for an hour." If any of this sounds familiar: you're not alone, and you're not a monster. You're a person doing something incredibly hard with limited resources and unlimited expectations.
These feelings don't cancel out your love. They exist alongside it.
The resentment that flares when your mom, kid or the job calls during the one hour you carved out for yourself. The guilt that immediately follows the resentment. The anger at a kid who doesn't put their dishes in the dishwasher - or at a parent who won't accept help. The grief that hits you in the car after a visit, mourning someone who's still alive but slowly becoming someone you don't recognize.
And then there's the other direction: the frustration you feel from random interactions - followed by guilt because you should be grateful - at least you have a job and/or your kid or parent(s) are healthy and here.
These emotions don't make you a bad person. They make you a human being doing an impossibly hard thing.
This week, we're talking about the full emotional reality of sandwich generation life—not the version you perform for everyone else, but the version that lives in your head at the end of the day.
You're not broken. You're just carrying a lot.
Here’s what we’re diving into this week:
- In the News
- Quick Win
- Deep Dive Topic of the Week
- Meal Plan (for you or your loved one)
- Support
Let’s get into it. 💛
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IN THE NEWS: Worth Your Limited Reading Time
- Are you being a ‘Jessica’? How the internet crowned the millennial version of the Karen — The Independent — We can't keep up with Gen Z lingo, but this article helps.
- It’s still not OK, boomer: younger Americans are flailing – and mad as hell — The Guardian — Homes for our generation costs us twice as much as it cost our parents gen. 🤯
- The death of the career – why it’s now all about ‘passive income’ and the ‘polygamous worker’ — The Independent — Are you still trying to advance in your career or are you embracing the 'passive income' culture? Hit reply and let me know!
🔥 QUICK WIN OF THE WEEK
Action: The "Name It to Tame It" Practice
Here's a tool backed by neuroscience: simply naming an emotion reduces its intensity.
How it works in your brain:
When you experience a strong emotion, your amygdala (the brain's alarm system) fires up — racing heart, tense muscles, that "I'm about to lose it" feeling. But when you put a feeling into words, you activate your prefrontal cortex (the rational brain). UCLA brain imaging studies show that labeling an emotion actually calms the amygdala. You shift from "I AM furious" to "I'm noticing fury" — a small change that creates real distance.
Why this matters: Unnamed emotions tend to leak out sideways — as snapping at someone, stress eating, or that tight feeling in your chest. Named emotions lose some of their power.
Try this:
When a wave of guilt, anger, or resentment hits, pause and say (out loud or silently): "I'm noticing I'm feeling resentment right now."
You're not fixing it. You're not judging it. You're just naming it — which turns down the volume enough to respond instead of react.
Acknowledgment isn't approval. It's just honesty.
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Deep Dive: Why Caregiving Brings Up Complicated Emotions (And Why That Doesn't Make You a Bad Person)
I've been hearing a recurring theme from several different people in several different communities, and it sounds something life this: "I feel guilty that I'm relieved when my visit is over. I love my parents, but I also count the minutes until I can leave."
I hate to admit it, but I've had the same thoughts and feelings too.
If you haven't had these feelings, then you're a unicorn. LOL, jk, every family is different, so is every family dynamic.
Here's what nobody tells you when you become a caregiver: you're going to feel things that seem completely contradictory, sometimes within the same hour.
You love your parent deeply and you dread their phone calls. You'd do anything for your kids and you fantasize about checking into a hotel alone for three days. You're grateful your mom is still here and you're exhausted by what "here" looks like now.
This is normal. Not just common - developmentally and psychologically normal.
Why caregiving triggers so much:
Caregiving activates old family dynamics. Suddenly you're not just helping your dad with his medications - you're navigating decades of relationship history (and sometimes trauma). The parent who was critical is still critical. The one who never said "I love you" still doesn't. You've grown, but they haven't. You're grieving the relationship you wished you had while managing the one you actually have.
AND if you have kids, you try your hardest to level up your parents, giving your kids everything you didn't have - checking every box that your parents missed while also feeling frustrated with their lack of appreciation and resenting the soft life you've given them.
Caregiving involves ambiguous loss. When a parent has dementia or a chronic illness, you lose them gradually - their personality, their memories, their ability to be the parent you knew. You're grieving someone who's still physically present, and there's no script or path for that.
Caregiving often lacks reciprocity. Unlike friendships or partnerships, caregiving relationships can feel one-directional. You give and give, and the thank-yous may be rare or nonexistent. Resentment in that context isn't a character flaw - it's a natural response to an imbalanced equation.
Here's what I want you to know:
As I'm writing this to you, I'm also speaking to myself. Feeling resentment doesn't mean you don't love them. Feeling relief when you get a break doesn't mean you want them gone. Feeling anger doesn't mean you're ungrateful. These emotions can coexist with deep love and commitment.
The goal isn't to eliminate the hard feelings — it's to stop adding a layer of shame on top of them. You're already carrying enough.
Complicated emotions are the price of admission for loving people through difficult seasons. They're evidence that you're paying attention, that you're human, that this matters to you.
That's not something to be ashamed of. That's something to be honored.
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🥗 WEEKLY MEAL PLAN (for you or your parents)
30-Minute Meals on a Budget: Comfort Food Edition
(Because sometimes you need a hug in food form)
MONDAY: Creamy Chicken & Rice Soup
TUESDAY: Sheet Pan Sausage & Roasted Vegetables
WEDNESDAY: Beef & Bean Chili (Shortcut Version)
THURSDAY: Creamy Tomato Pasta with Spinach
FRIDAY: Breakfast for Dinner — Cheesy Scrambled Eggs & Toast
SATURDAY: Slow Cooker Pulled Pork (Hands-Off)
SUNDAY: One-Pot Chicken Alfredo
For more details on these meals, click here.
WEEKLY GROCERY ESTIMATE: ~$75-80 for 4-6 people
Prep Tips:
- Sunday: Make pulled pork while you prep for the week
- Double the chili and freeze half for a future lazy night
- Leftover rotisserie chicken works in the soup and alfredo if you're short on time
🌐 Need to talk?
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💬 A Final Thought
That's it for this week. If you read this and felt seen—or felt relieved that someone finally said it—I'm glad.
You're doing harder work than most people understand. And your complicated feelings? They're not a sign you're failing. They're a sign you're human.
Hit reply and tell me: what's the emotion you've been afraid to admit?
TTYS,
Amber Chapman
Editorial Director
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